Clown
The ridiculous actions on stage are for the laughter of the audience
The repetition of these routines is to (Make ends meet)
Parents and their happy kids come to see me, to see the dancing me
Looking at their contempt faces, looking at myself
There's so much that I want to say
(You came to see me that day)
Why did I lose control upon seeing you?
(Everything went wrong)
It was because I fell in love
(Watching me, you laughed so hard)
My confused limbs flailed aimlessly here and there
(It appeared you might like me )
With this thought, even falling didn't hurt
(Or it could just be that you like clowns)
I realized how it's impossible to tell my sweat from my tears
(You left right after the performance)
I'm just a clown
(You came to see me that day)
Even those boring games seemed hilarious
(Every exaggerated move)
Is done for you
(Watching me, you laughed so hard)
I rubbed my eyes to make sure you were really cheering for me
(It appeared you might like me)
I did a cartwheel to impress you
(Or it could just be that you like clowns)
I realized there's nothing different between what happens on stage and in real life
(You left right after the performance)
I'm just a clown
There's no way you would think of me again (I'm just a stupid clown)
Just like everyone else, you came just for laughs (I'm just a stupid clown)
I had to endure the pain of you laughing at my ugliness (I'm just a stupid clown)
There's so much I want to say but no one to talk to (I'm just a stupid clown)
(Watching me, you laughed so hard)
My confused limbs flailed aimlessly here and there
(It appeared you might like me)
With this thought, even falling didn't hurt
(Or it could just be that you like clowns)
I realized how it's impossible to tell my sweat from my tears
(You left right after the performance)
I'm not a clown
-Michelle Ning Lo
