1999 was a year of change. My desire to work as an architect had vanished and a personal search for real happiness was on. As a child, I remembered my interest in art and thought it was it appropriate that I begin my exploration with drawing. For whatever reason, my feelings were not to draw anything representational. No trees and flowers, no traditional landscape, no figures – but a feeling that could be transferred from my heart and mind to paper. Abstraction was the only language suitable to convey the message. What came out that first night of creating was something of a surprise, as the end product was unspeakably beautiful: a dark, voluminous enigmatic circle. I was entranced. What was even more exciting the act of creating, the joy and the elation of seeing nothing become something.
From that exploration, I began to investigate various universal symbols – such as the cross, more variations of the circle, triangle and square – seeking out perhaps its deeper meaning. This then lead the way to a pivotal piece entitled ONE, a subtle representation of the physical/ non-physical form of consciousness. ONE became a personal breakthrough in my own line of work and quite different that my previous images. Here is what I wrote in my artists’ statement for my first solo exhibition entitled First Level:
I first experimented with meditation about a year ago. I had never experienced anything extraordinary or particularly memorable. Perhaps I was expecting too much or just thinking too much. It was not until one night when I was tired, that something did happen and I began to fall. I remembered the same feeling as a child. I let go, and finally, I drifted. A purple- colored form danced before me, allowing me to see its beauty just as it was. I did not ask of anything. I just watched and enjoyed its presence. This to me was my first level. Upon my return, I drew One: formless and with no boundaries, yet its presence certain.
There is no past
There is no future
There is only Now
Infinity has no beginning
Infinity has no end
There is no beginning to Now
There is no end to Now
There is only the infinite moment of Now
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