Wednesday, 7th November - I woke up confused. What time is it? What day is it? It’s so dark outside and I can see the street lamp glaring into my bedroom, how can it be 7.00am. I can hear the lorries and trucks racing down the hill outside my window. I feel cold sweats all over my body I need to get out of this bed and shower. I can taste the unpleasant sourness in my mouth, I must’ve forgot to brush my teeth last night. Need water.

Thursday, 8th November - Again, I’m woken up by the vehicles going past my bedroom. And again, it’s boiling in my room. I keep forgetting to turn the heating down before I go to sleep. I can feel my mattress moulded around the shape of my body, it’s as if I’m floating. 

Friday, 9th November - Immediately I wake up stressed. Today I have a lot to get done before I leave this room. I feel my blankets wrapped around me, I need to get up but this bed wants me to stay. I can hear doors opening and closing around me, maybe that’ll encourage me to get up. I need to leave this bed.

Saturday, 10th November - I’m woken up by his arms wrapping around me, I feel peaceful, I’m finally back next to him. I’m happy. It’s hot in here it always has been I want to get all these sheets off me but I don’t want to move from his embrace. I can hear footsteps above us and footsteps walking up and down outside the bedroom. We need to get up.

Sunday, 11th November - My head is spinning, already I feel regretful from the night before I don’t want to be reminded of what happened. I can hear those dogs barking again, nothing has changed. This is the last time I’ll wake up next to him for a while, I want to savour this moment laying next to him for a little longer.

Monday, 12th November - Back in my bed, the bed I’ve slept in for years. My room, the room that I’ve lived in for my entire life. Despite that, it doesn’t feel like my bed or my room anymore. It doesn’t feel like home. I can hear my dog barking relentlessly outside my window, most likely at nothing. I should get up.

Tuesday, 13th November - Startled by my dog barking outside my bedroom door, wish I could ignore it but she won’t stop. I’m wide awake and too hot to stay in the linen I’ve wrapped myself up in. 

Wednesday, 14th November - My head is pounding, my eyes don’t want to open everything is blurred, I can’t feel my hands. Everything feels out of place. Go back to sleep.

Thursday, 15th November- I’m anxious to see them. Will the bond still be the same after not seeing them for months. Will they think I’ve changed? Think that I’m not the same person they met 3 years ago? I’ve missed them I so badly hope our relationship hasn’t changed. I hope they’ve been doing well. 

Friday, 16th November- Exhausted from this week, can I manage to go out today? I can hear the birds singing outside, I’ve missed that sound. I feel the heat from my radiator filling the room and my cotton duvet wrapped around me. I see the light trying to seep through my curtains and blinds that I don’t want to open, I want to stay here for longer.