"erase"
building experience, identity, knowledge, spirit, work, community, connections and finding a deep-rooted place and calming reality in your existence..
..then being hit with a sick feeling in your stomach that despite all this, there is still no belonging.
a desire to be erased and lose all connection to this world and find that real place.
coupled with working on multiple projects to expose a lot of what i have 'built' is, as ever, sending me in a spin.
fastened to one spot, moving but not going anywhere.
"it's time to dig out the skeletons, open the monster-ridden cupboard and look under the bed....
for all that is odd, unexpected, all that we fear (to show, to hide), and how that reflects and shapes our world and other-worldly view - to be exposed, no matter how discomforting and creepy...
...is manifesting in a need to express boldly - to the point that it gashes and scars me - realise open wounds in order to heal them; instead of leaving a cancerous idea bubble under my skin and letting it consume me with regret."
"lurk I"
i expect to release:
darkness
light
ugly
beauty
and the undefinable in-between.
…
my own face already reminds me how haunting this project is,
for me and for you all who are reluctant to take a deeper look at the not-so-flattering but real-of-The-Real depths within.
but we need to start diggin’.
my shovel is my camera,
what’s yours?
"lurk II"
skulk
loiter
lie in wait
hide
conceal oneself
take cover
keep out of sight
…
eyes that were narrowed, thoughts that were trapped, heart that was imprisoned - once illusive & lurking in shadows; once the intriguing and mysterious creature. now the intrigued and now too curious to not show face.
