The Villain : a monologue
I don’t have a problem with being the bad guy.
Maybe that’s what makes me a bad guy. Maybe the reason we hate the villains so much is their unwavering conviction in the logic behind the chaos they’ve caused. Both led by a same motive, a goal to appease a subjective “best interest”, what differentiates the good guys from the bad guys is emotions that pander to humanness: things that drive you, give you purpose, love, care, guilt, pain, things that draw out the human in you; a good guy that wrongs you is not a villain if he panders to your vulnerability, your humanness.
But a villain, a villain is a good guy who wronged you but does not care.
Because the best interest he appeased wasn’t yours. HE didn’t touch your humanness. He didn’t care about you. And if he did, it just wasn’t relevant to the best interest he chose to defend. So you scorn him. You despise him, because the act of selfishness isn’t parallel to your inherent humanness.
You wish he’d care the way you did, or fold in pain the way you did.
But the truth remains, at least in my eyes, that the binaries of good and bad in the telling of a story between two people, will exist from whatever angle you choose to expose it. And there will always be a villain in the story.
The villain understands that you will hate him,
the villain makes the choice for you to be the good guy.
Why do you hate him so much?
The villain allows you to wallow in that humanness that you SO desperately desire to remain in tune with: he gives you the opportunity to mourn, to cry, to scream, to bend in pain, for pain demands to be felt and our dear beloved villain hands it to you on a golden platter.
So why?
Understand that in your story, it could’ve been you. You could’ve been the villain.
But your fickle mind cannot commit to the conviction it takes to be the villain. Your fragile bones cannot withstand the judgement it takes to be the villain.
Your withering spirit cannot reconcile being a martyr at the stake for your selfish beliefs of what you may define as greater good.
Maybe one day you’ll be great enough to be a villain. Maybe.
But as for me, i don’t have a problem with being the bad guy.
