SUN MAY SHINE

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SUN MAY SHINE

The sorrow was so large it threatened to tear through my skin.
It lasted for so long, all things swift and beautiful and bright would feel numb

In the darkness, There was a shadow, reaching through the hopeless, heavy dusk.
Walking through the mist, Was just hoping to feel a thing

The shadow shifted, an infinitesimal movement, towards me.

It is like the leap from a waterfall.
I do not know, until then, what I am going to do.

It was almost like fear, in the way it filled me, rising in my chest. It was almost like tears, in how swiftly it came. But it was neither of those

We reached for each other and I thought of how many nights

I had lain awake in my room waiting for it in silence.

But when it's rising inside me, I am air and thought and can do nothing

There was more to say, there was more to do, but for once

I didn't do anything.
I wasn't worthy of this fight
In the shadow's feigned retreat
I followed blindly in defeat

And perhaps it is the greater grief, after all, to be left alone in this mist where everybody is gone.
Do you think?
But eventually I'll surrender first to the shadow at the dusk.
In its false withdrawal
It'll have me rise, It'll have me fall
But the will of this heart won't have me looking down

Early spring arrived
Sober, light grey sky
Sun may shine, sun may shine
Just right now it won’t rise
In its sullen gaze
I see no care for this place
and still..