I want to be able to tell a story and have others understand my story and somehow relate to their own lives
I want my work to evoke emotion with everyone and not just be a nice picture
Let me tell you my story
I will listen to yours
I never really saw myself as an "artist". I enjoyed witting as a way to express myself. I am skillful in manipulating words to express my emotions- I could make my writing what I wanted and I knew what my final outcome would be. ART is unpredictable. It may turn out, it may not. That sense of THE UNKNOWN made it d… Read More
I never really saw myself as an "artist". I enjoyed witting as a way to express myself. I am skillful in manipulating words to express my emotions- I could make my writing what I wanted and I knew what my final outcome would be. ART is unpredictable. It may turn out, it may not. That sense of THE UNKNOWN made it difficult to see myself as an artist. I would have an image in my mind, but it never became what I had envisioned. This frustrated me greatly. I felt like a failure because my work did not seem to come as easily as the other students--I felt like I worked 10X as hard to produce work that others could snap their fingers and it looked amazing. This sense of "not being good enough" made me feel less and less as an artist.
I soon came to the realization I needed to stop comparing myself to others; I had different experiences and different reasons for taking the pictures I did. I did not have to please anyone but myself. My art was just that: MINE. I was able to be in control of what I made. I could manipulate my thoughts and memories into my own creation. Due to situations like my father leaving my family when I was young, I am uncomfortable with things that are unknown or uncertain. These situations evoke uneasiness within me. The unpredictability in photography at times has frightened or intimidated me as there were so many aspects of it that were beyond my control. In time, I have grown to be more grounded and more comfortable with the unknown.
The unknown in my work still exists today, but I have learned to be okay with it. There are times I am shocked with the result in a good way. When I was driving through Chicago, I took a picture of part of the skyline from the car. I was sure it would be a blurry mess but to my surprise it was a stunning picture I was able to be proud of. It is moments like these I have learned to ENJOY the unknown in my work.
Art has been my way to cope with the world around me. Especially during very difficult times, like with my father, where I felt I had no control over anything, art became my way of regaining MY CONTROL. Read Less