Gone with the wind
I cannot forget what I see, a beautiful and sexy woman appearing in a uncoordinated house. Shabby rooms, leaking toilet, cockroaches wandering in the kitchen, the bedroom is under ten square meters, the room can only accomodate a bed and two simple wardrobe. On the streets, rubbish was spilling over.
One would not associate such a dump together with a movie star, but in reality this is her residence _ because she has yet to become famous
While the film has won an award, it did not bring much material benefit. The god of luck did not appear, eventually an agent was found, hoping for the better.
When there is a film to be made it was routine coming home early in the morning, and on an empty stomach, but more frightening is that when there is no flim to shoot, often idling for months, sometimes a year, during which finding a job to sustain life is the only option. Without much acting experience the income is very low. How nice it is to change all the branded possessions to money, the will to buy a Louis Vuitton bag is gone. Buying a dress for a few dollars is now a joy.
While the film has won an award, it did not bring much material benefit. The god of luck did not appear, eventually an agent was found, hoping for the better.
When there is a film to be made it was routine coming home early in the morning, and on an empty stomach, but more frightening is that when there is no flim to shoot, often idling for months, sometimes a year, during which finding a job to sustain life is the only option. Without much acting experience the income is very low. How nice it is to change all the branded possessions to money, the will to buy a Louis Vuitton bag is gone. Buying a dress for a few dollars is now a joy.
Destruction of a dream is in sight. Sticking to the dream could mean an empty stomach, but ultimately there is compromise. To lay down one’s favorite art, to do that which is scorned upon. The opportunity is gone, and the chance, and surprises too.
From hence, life has become life without a dream.
Slowly, a heart of pride is being ground into a small stone.
What was once thought of as glorious beauty is no longer displayed.
What was once thought of as glorious beauty is no longer displayed.
Finally accepting that opportunity and chance is prepared for those with money and relationships. No matter how talented one is, opportunity and chance does not just drop in without aim.
In the end, to lay down one’s dream, to bow to reality.
In this generation, the price of dreaming is high
and so
many people have given up the dream.
and so
many people have given up the dream.
9.8.2015
Dedicated to my dearest friend Jessica _
Former Japanese Short Film Festival Best Actress winner.
The best singer.
Best Actress (not sure if she is still acting)
Commemorate the day we drink and streaking together.
Former Japanese Short Film Festival Best Actress winner.
The best singer.
Best Actress (not sure if she is still acting)
Commemorate the day we drink and streaking together.
